There is nothing to fear

i havent made any notes about my cim study until now. I have been involved every morning for the last four months on working my way throught the training lesson parts, sometimes taking two or three days on a daily lesson if i feel i havent quite understood and taken the lesson on board. It was a new dialogue for me, i'm not a bible person, and have been anti religion and even anti god at times. I just put it all aside as i decided to follow the course. Once having made my desicion, it was quite easy to ignore my inner cynicism. The text has posed some difficulties, its hard to get my head around some of the concepts. "What do you mean there isnt anyone else here, everyone is actually me, but actually there is no me either!!!" i persevere, and practise forgiveness. This book is honestly the only calling i've everr really recieved. I dont know what else to do. i'm happy, holy spirit is with me